The life that you dreamed of and made in your head and thought about before you went to bed will probably never exist except in our minds. We grow up being told that you need to go through school, date around, go to college and get a career, get married and have a family. Relationships take up most of your life between the ages 15-23. Most girls think they have found their true love at 15. They open their hearts and don't have any guards up. That relationship ends and a wall starts to build up. You don't want to go on and don't think you will ever find someone else.
You go off to college and fall in love again and have your life planned with this person. Marriage and a family. Nothing can possibly go wrong, right. WRONG, you let your guard down, you let someone in, like you did the first time, thinking everything was great. That person was your world, but you let that person have your heart giving them the okay to hurt you, even if you trusted them not too.
But how do you let yourself be in another relationship when all the other ones that you pictured as perfect are crumbling down in front of your very eyes? That has to have a huge impact on your outlook on life, right? Why would you want to put yourself in a situation where marriage could become an outcome?
I wish I had the answers to these questions too. I had my first love at 15 and was going to get married and have a family with my second love. Now I have a family with my 3rd love, but am too scared to get married because of divorce and just families falling apart left and right.
How do you not let the things around you have an effect on your life rather or not they pertain to you?
I had a whole different idea of how I wanted this post to go but once I started typing it took a different turn..oh well!
